Do you really just know?

For a long time, I believed in destiny and fate and all that romantic nonsense that many young females believe. That our dashing white knight is going to swoop in and save the day. That our eyes will lock across a crowded room and he will walk over and the rest will be history. Then I had my heart broken. I was with a man I thought I was going to marry. I threw my entire heart and soul into the relationship, and offered him every piece of myself. It was not an easy relationship. And after awhile, he stopped being the good man he was in the beginning. He changed; it was like I dated two completely different people. During the last six months of our relationship, I was miserable, and so was he. It ended because we were two completely different people with two completely different goals in life. He no longer wanted to spend his lifetime with me, as he had once promised. So, I ended it. I was emotionally destroyed, and my self-esteem was shot. He had not payed me a compliment in a year. It effected my relationships for a year. I stopped believing in love and fate and destiny. Until the day I met C.

What are the odds that we would meet? He sat down next to me and we talked for the next three hours. Went out once, it was the wrong time. We seem to have the worst timing. One of us is never ready for a relationship. Most of the time it has been me. And then he moved to the other side of the country. And even then, I freaked. I did not want to be his reason to move home. What if it didn't work? He would resent me. And I could not let that happen. We hadn't talked since December. I would email and text, and finally I pestered him enough that he returned a call. This was three weeks ago. Now, I am going to visit him in October. This is not just a friend visiting a friend. This is going to be a deal-breaker. He makes me laugh like noone else ever has. He is the kind of man I could marry. If I went down there and he said "Let's elope," I would drive with him to Vegas. He wants to come home because his entire family is here. And maybe I can give him another reason to come home because now I want to be a reason for him to move back. I think the moment I met him, I did just know. I knew I could spend my lifetime with him. It probably makes me sound like a lunatic, but there is something that pulls us back to one another. Something is just there.